Neither can I clip his wings nor let him fly!

Which is worse? 

Gaza's burning and has been declared war zone , thanks to Israel and the other Big Brother Countries. As a result, it's giving birth to terrorism which may be, for them, fighting for their rights. In any case, this happened when they were invaded by outsiders. But what about us? 

We are fighting border-related issues across the outline of our map and inside, we live under constant fear for life and living , thanks to our own people !!! 

So which one is worse?

It's not about only a 6-year old but about those who conspired to hide it. Really????? So now how do we trust schools and where do we send our kids? Whom are we fighting? I feel panicky when my son steps out and get very restless until he returns. I keep pushing him to share everything and he hasn't a clue why his mom keeps repeating her words everyday. Neither can I clip his wings nor let him fly freely, I'm sure it's every parent's dilemma as well as their helplessness. 

I have been nursing a thought in my mind for a long time now, it's not about right or wrong. Why doesn't our legal system let the families of the victims to take action against the culprits for once ?  I feel , if they suffered the loss then they should be the ones to take action too. Why doesn't the khap panchayat do something about these kind of psychotic people? These are the moments that push me to believe that the parallel government is the best solution. It may look like a terrorizing thought but for me it's the liberating one !!!!

Gaza and us are no different, both are battling for a better future but the difference is they are fighting outsiders !!!!

From The Godfather :


“I don't trust society to protect us, I have no intention of placing my fate in the hands of men whose only qualification is that they managed to con a block of people to vote for them.” 

And Don Corleone lives on...........!

My 2 am call !

Now-a-days I wake up around 2 am almost everyday feeling hungry knowing the painful thing would be to fall asleep after filling my stomach and that's when I get crazier. 

Sometime I go online and see if any of my sleep deprived friends or those on the other side of the globe are available to rant about just anything, sometime I turn on TV and start watching on mute, sometimes pick up the one-day-old newspaper or just lie down and reminisce. But I never pick up a book to read while waiting to fall asleep. By mistake I opened a book last Friday and I couldn't put it down until I turned the last page over. It was a lesson learnt just in time.

One such day, during the wee hour I called a friend of mine.

" Huh helloooo" he sounded sleepy.
" Oops, sorry. Did I wake you up? I thought you would be at work."
" I am at work yaar but yes you did wake me up."
" Ahaaaa, very funny. Why don't you go home and sleep?"
"  This is the story of my life. I come to office and I feel sleepy but I go home I'm wide awake!!!!"
" Why? isn't it more comfortable to sleep in your bed than at your work station?"
" Yeah but my wife is at home and I'm very scared I might get screamed at for what I do or say in my sleep. She keeps me on leash you know?" he was being funny, I know. 
" Yeah right, again back to your one of those stale henpecked jokes. It's a bad one I tell you. Why did you even marry then?" I was trying to prove a point.
" Please yaar, don't ask me such questions. I can answer this question but then you will spit at me and get disgusted. Why bachcha why?" he's always the joker that all of us want to call when we have nothing to do.
" You are the biggest clown in town."  
" Ok you tell me this, why are you awake at this hour? Shouldn't you be in bed?" he asked.
Knowing my condition he was genuinely concerned and I knew it.
" I was feeling hungry so I woke up and now I can't sleep." I complained.
Him: " Ohhhho what do we do now? Ok wait I'm gonna make you listen to something and you will fall asleep."
I : " I will? how sure?"
Him: " You have worked in the customer service industry, haven't you? "
I: " Yeah so?"

 He didn't say anything after that but he made me listen to something over the phone and the next thing I heard was my husband waking me up. It was bright and sunny morning. 
He asked me what was my phone doing on my pillow and I told him what happened.

" So how did you finally sleep? What did he make you listen to ?"
" Yeah well, he made me feel I was at work and it worked. Last thing I remember is, some IVR repeating ' your call is important to us, please hold the line'  and then here I am !"

We both laughed. My husband was happy that I woke up with a smile and not feeling like throwing up and I was happy that I got some sleep. I dunno whom am I gonna dial today.....!!!!!!