'Baazigar O Baazigar...Tu Hai Bada Jaadugar.....' still gives me goosebumps !
In the early 90s when this movie was released I was crazy about Shahrukh and every time I saw Kajol I always felt it was me. It was released in the year 1993 and I had just started my high-school, everything was new and exciting ( I guess teenage does that to everybody!). I had memorized the whole song (infact all the songs from this movie) and would sing as if I was meant to be in the song along with Shahrukh. This continued to be so till after DDLJ ( I guess it was released in 1995 and I was in the final year of my high school and couldn't wait to feel romantic) . Boy, I was sooooo into Sharukh that I would get very emotional every time I sang " .....tere pyaar pe kurbaan mera dil mera jaan,tujhe lag jaye meri umar!" sounds a lot funny now but it felt differently back then.
I have been the funny, weird,passionate,obsessive,possessive, rebellion and what not through out. I would always wear my heart on the sleeve and was not afraid or embarrassed to show what I really was. I remember not wearing any make-up or even a lip balm back then. I always wanted to look the way I was made. It has always been wash and wear look! I miss being that girl,immensely!Today I was watching 'Baazigar' again and the Kajol in that reminded me of myself. The fact that I still enjoy the songs and the movie,makes me believe that the girl I always was is still there inside me somewhere and I just have to make an effort to bring her back. I have added a lot of weight (....a LOT) and don't look the same as I was back then but I still feel the same.
Now almost 20 years later, I care about my looks ( I guess age does that to you ;-) ) and my body. What I wear ,how I look take a front seat over what I feel,what I want to do. Sometimes I wonder,what happened to THAT girl? Except that I stopped adoring Shahrukh,there's nothing else to feel proud about !!!! I'm not the same passionate me I used to be once. Sometimes I wonder if I have lost that passion or have chosen to be the mild goose. Why would I care what someone says (or comments on FB ;-)) or what I want them to say ? Not that my friends don't matter to me but my SELF matters more and I guess I should bring her back.
If being mad is not normal then I don't want to be normal :-)
In the early 90s when this movie was released I was crazy about Shahrukh and every time I saw Kajol I always felt it was me. It was released in the year 1993 and I had just started my high-school, everything was new and exciting ( I guess teenage does that to everybody!). I had memorized the whole song (infact all the songs from this movie) and would sing as if I was meant to be in the song along with Shahrukh. This continued to be so till after DDLJ ( I guess it was released in 1995 and I was in the final year of my high school and couldn't wait to feel romantic) . Boy, I was sooooo into Sharukh that I would get very emotional every time I sang " .....tere pyaar pe kurbaan mera dil mera jaan,tujhe lag jaye meri umar!" sounds a lot funny now but it felt differently back then.
I have been the funny, weird,passionate,obsessive,possessive, rebellion and what not through out. I would always wear my heart on the sleeve and was not afraid or embarrassed to show what I really was. I remember not wearing any make-up or even a lip balm back then. I always wanted to look the way I was made. It has always been wash and wear look! I miss being that girl,immensely!Today I was watching 'Baazigar' again and the Kajol in that reminded me of myself. The fact that I still enjoy the songs and the movie,makes me believe that the girl I always was is still there inside me somewhere and I just have to make an effort to bring her back. I have added a lot of weight (....a LOT) and don't look the same as I was back then but I still feel the same.
Now almost 20 years later, I care about my looks ( I guess age does that to you ;-) ) and my body. What I wear ,how I look take a front seat over what I feel,what I want to do. Sometimes I wonder,what happened to THAT girl? Except that I stopped adoring Shahrukh,there's nothing else to feel proud about !!!! I'm not the same passionate me I used to be once. Sometimes I wonder if I have lost that passion or have chosen to be the mild goose. Why would I care what someone says (or comments on FB ;-)) or what I want them to say ? Not that my friends don't matter to me but my SELF matters more and I guess I should bring her back.
If being mad is not normal then I don't want to be normal :-)
